FRIENDS AND FAMILY

I've really been going through alot of shit within the last year. I've really found out exactly what level to put certain friend's and family on. I have these day's when I just don't want to be here anymore. But that's really not the answer. I want my life to be so different, but what I do know is that I will have to make that happen for myself. There are times when I know folk's just can't do, but I also know that if a person want's to do something to make your day, week, month or even year a little better they will. I have eliminated lot's of folk's out of my life and there's still a few that I need to evaluate. I'm really ready for lot's of changes in "My World". A world that only consist of things that I want. I know that there are alot of folk's out here who love me, but there are also a few that are around just to be around. That's fine because the real alway's stand in the end. I have alway's been one of those people who wanted to do thing's on my own, and as of right now there's not to much I can do for myself. But in due time my day shall come and i'm going to tell lot's of folk's to just get the fuck on... In my new world i'll be well off, happy everyday and in good standing with the folk's who count the most. Today is my husband's birthday and he's not here with me. Birthday's, holiday's and special event's are really important to me. But in life we all make our own decision's and some are good and some are bad. But my husband made his bed and now the both of us must lay in it. It's almost time for him to come home and I will be so much more happier than i've been in the last year. And for all who aren't on my train of success, just won' be in my life at all. I love him and he has finally decided to make alot of changes in his life and me being the wife I am, i'm going to back him 100%. I wish some folk's would do the same for me. But i'll be fine I love life, my husband and most of all I love"GOD"...